Fionnade

If I could have a heart And care what makes you whole You're lost in your own head But I have no path to bring you home Find yourself Life isn't waiting this whole time It's too hard to let go But not easy enough to hold on Wouldn't you know that tonight Is going to be like all the others Try to wake up in the morning Find your coffee No one is waiting at the table So keep moving on today No one hears your screaming mind Wanting something different There's got to be something better Pass every masked stranger Holding the same shield you are I turn away from you You ask too much of my heart

Living with a broken heart They say you won't Love like this forever Time can always ease away Any vivid memories I'll consider this true tomorrow But today there's been no changes Just like yesterday I remember your playful laugh So I'll live like this forever With a struggle just to smile Holding on to photos How long can this go on? With everything perfect All around me No one sees the sorrow Without you here Time goes on My heart held together With duct tape

Little girl Feel Beautiful Your blue eyes just starting To look at the world Your future so bright With any possibility My mind clouding it with doubt Of everything that could happen So can I hold you close And keep you safe with me I never want you To ever grow up As I imagine now The tears you will cry Over broken hearts The struggle you have To find yourself The uncertainty you feel And every bad day Oh little girl Just stay close with me Then you smile I see again Every laugh with friends The little jokes you tell Excitement you have At your first dance So now little girl How beautiful you'll be

It has been so long Since I saw the world From a child's view Was I ever really young? A jaded adult twist Engulfs every memory If I could just go back To an idealistic thought That fantasy could be real When everything is as seen No tragic thought To the history behind it But a beauty exists Along with a constant question A fascination, wonder A riveting hunger Enlaced with confusion A hunt for oneself That never fully ends But changes into a More concrete mindset As I color within lines As I forget To be a child

Where has the time gone? Was it yesterday The day before Or can I just imagine That then is now That a year is a week And though sometimes a day Seems an eternity When seconds freeze And the world stands still If some times minutes fly And I can't keep count As suddenly time jumps It feels so irrelevant To the relevance of life Time is beautiful And a mystery uncontained How it disappears and fades away And all I want is it back Back to have another moment The one that's always in my mind I will catch that frame of film And pause it in the present But then it would mean To never have another moment When future feels it's right So time now l

I await this. Broken. Wondering if the sacrifice Was worth the fight. Acknowledge That if I'm here There is still a chance To begin life For isn't that what was traded In the end?

The rain hits the window pane. I stop to watch As every moment keeps me in check The water trickles down Every movement planned A certain destiny to its path A freedom I almost imagine to exist The lovely sounds of thunder Wandering through the background Can beauty exist anywhere else? I take it all in Everything I can remember And all I wanted to forget Connects here, now. This rain so sweet and innocent Causing tragedy in children's eyes All in perspective. How long will it last? The time swirls by Splashing the window ledge Crystal drops of a beauty I almost ignored Just a moment longer And then maybe I'll see a sun

This is life. Down. I had a mother and father at one point. Up, down. And I was born. Up, down. I went to school. Up, down. Sometimes I like to play. Up, down. There are other kids there too. Up, down. We start to learn. Up, down. I will grow up. Up, down. Not everyone does. Up, down. But I am here now. Up, down. I get a job. Up, down. To make some money. Up, down. Look for a girl to call my own. Up, down. I have a dog. Up, down. I have a name. Up, down. The future to this name is unknown. Up, down. But I won't think about that. Up, down. Just this moment. Up, down. Just here. Up, down. Now. Up.

I see you Your beautiful smile Warming eyes I could lose myself tonight And feel the happiness That cascades over me Is this what love can be? I could laugh for awhile Stay with me again What can be The future stretched before us Tomorrow is wonderful This moment is perfect Hold me quietly Say no more words Your smile leaves your eyes But remains on your face As you tell me goodbye Even though I will Never understand I try to be strong Even if tears Give my heart away I see you leave I question tomorrow This feeling will fade I just need time again In the darkness of night Alone and confused I remember and tell myself This is just temporary A

Right here waiting now Got the wings of flight On the back of me Can't you feel the ground? Time to take off From the safety Wondering what's to be found A cloudless sky or a sunrise Moonlit night in the daytime Wind that rushes by Fantasize of an angel A sky that is all mine A dream that's never ending Fly by my hand I'll catch you in my arms Wings that crack with sorrow Will only keep you to the ground With sand and dirt in your hair When I just want to feel you Next to the stars.